For the first time in my life I feel so humiliated like that. I've been screwing up my life recently and I know I am not a good person but hey, everybody makes mistakes right? The thing is, after all this time I keep thinking to myself, did I deserve to be treated like that? I'm a strong person I know that. But everybody have their limitations.I'm a human being, of course I have my down time too though. I am not supposed to be humiliated like that.
I've tried my hardest to face my biggest mistake, to be in front of the person that I respect, as I have been raised to do so. But, being treated like that, people kept throwing harsh words towards me like I am nothing but a whore. Hey, no one would EVER stand and stay quiet without throwing those harsh words back. Luckily I am sane enough to differentiate between anger and common sense. I am big enough, mature enough to know that I am supposed to respect, the person who older than me.
But those words, those words I will never forget till the day I died. I cried, I'm not going to lie saying that this is okay, I am okay. I feel so down at the time. I am no longer have spirit, even to live. and I keep saying to myself, "SUCK IT, AND WALK AWAY". and I did.
I will forget, but I will never forgive. even if I do someday, there must be, at one moment I will remember back those words that you've thrown to me. Believe me, it won't look nice. So, I better off my own now makcik. I won't see you again, for this moment. Maybe someday. We just hope that a miracle can happen.
I just hope one day you will realize of all the things that you've said to me before it's too late. ALLAHUAKBAR! May Allah bless you.
